WORST DAY EVER!!

**WARNING** Long ranting here...read at your own discretion...YOU have been WARNED!

I'm having a REALLY BAD DAY!!! I guess it's not the worst EVER cuz I could probably name many more days that were way bad (when Nathaniel & Felicia were little). BUT it's bad for me!

I had plans of this being our Super Saturday in terms of actually getting ALL the chores done (since nothing has been getting done for a while) today! I even typed up a nice list of all that I wanted done, including what I needed to do. Half the list was for me and the other half was for the kids to get done. I'm not asking for much, mostly pick up their stuff, put it away, help do some cleaning. The usual stuff that we do each Saturday, but lately NONE of it has gotten done. Especially the girls' room - it's AWFUL!!!

I've had to ask nicely, ask nicely again, ask not so nicely, beg, plead, scream & yell just to get them to do anything! Nathaniel is actually the only one doing some stuff. He got side-tracked a few times by turning on the tv or talking to a friend who came over to see if he could play. But at least he's doing something. The girls on the other hand - NOTHING!! They continued to play & run around. I had a long talk with the girls trying to motivate them to clean their room. It brought Felicia to tears, finally something touched her and they cleaned for a little while, so I let them have a lunch break. That's when it fell apart again. Just before Ben came home, I even started to cry because the house still looked really BAD & yelled at the kids some more. My sweet Nathaniel stepped it up and tried to really help more since the girls were lacking.

When Ben got home, I told the kids that if the house couldn't be cleaned up then I wanted to leave cuz it just makes me sick to look at it. So, I hid in one of the rooms where the kids couldn't see me. They suddenly realized I wasn't around & were looking for me. They even called my cell phone but found it on the counter. So, they called Ben's phone (he was taking a short nap in a dark room). They found him and were ok. They wanted bananas & forgot all about looking for me. They figured if my phone, purse, shoes, clothes & van were still here (I could hear them naming everything they found), then I must not be gone. However, Nathaniel began to cry and look for me everywhere. He was so upset! I felt a little bad. So, Ben convinced me to come out & make an appearance for Nathaniel. He suddenly calmed down. He is SO SWEET! He told me that he was missing me and that I am the only thing that makes him happy!! More tears for me. I LOVE them all SO MUCH, but it just hurts & makes me sad when they won't listen or help! Nathaniel has been helping me do laundry tonight (since there is tons & I stopped working since I totally lost it) and I think he's actually enjoying working with me. I guess he's just happy that I didn't actually leave. Although, I told him I was out walking around & decided to come back (I know it's mean but I was upset). The girls finally made some progress with their room. So, they finally get a little food for dinner (yes I know it's late but in my defense, they did have a really late lunch).

If it weren't for my sweet & amazing Nathaniel & my loving hubby Ben, then I would still be super duper upset! I have calmed down some & now I get to finish my primary lesson. I read it earlier in the week, I just need to do some finishing stuff with it.

Hope y'all had a better day than me!